:: ISAIAH IN SLUMBERLAND

The 11th marked the 4 year anniversary since i've fallen no jumped down into the rabbit hole of stagnated sloth plummeting into the chaos that has become my current life. Now approaching what appears to be the end of my days in squander i sit back and reflect on where i've come along the path of the past 4 years gone by... book's written pages of a wary boy who believed in a god of vital involvement, in fate and in destiny, in true love. who believed he can be someone of severe importance in the world, (particularly hollywood) who doesn't care much for labels nor for what then was the time being, and although i've yet to reach the winter of my discontent, i've come to find the world is a very different place for me. now it may sound very pessimistic but its not, i'm very much a boy coming to terms with life's more morbid issues and changing what i can, and learning to except what i can't. For me the universe is arbitrary, cause and effect are inescapable and brutal but it's value still remains a mystery to me... For me what externally was perceived as a shallow meaningless wasteful time in my life was actually the catapult to who i hope to become. As for this next season in my life I CHOOSE LIFE, the "life" andrew sachs spoke about when he wrote: "Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives."